Not perfect day.

Today is not good day for enjoy. At first it look okay but then become not okay because a small problem. TV, You are dammit kidding me! My sister and my mom frighting each other because TV.

 Don't be silly... By at time I could not say what why my sis yelled back at my mom. What the heck? This is so stupid.. -,- 

Well... I just want to say there are not same what we plan. we are plan it would be fine then not going fine. All what you want is not same what you dream. Just admit it. You life will be unfortunate. I can help that. My sister dream that she would get her job from Tia, I mean sis Tia. But... Like I guess she to late and she couldn't get. Just now the only leave is Jasco job but she dislike it. That would be a serious. If she can't get her job what would happen to us? That could be we are died together. What on my sis mind is hoping my grandmother help us and she have to died immediately. Just forget that hope! You planed to move here! Klang! And you know we couldn't survive without money. If you want to living easy, why wouldn't you stay with you grandmother? You can continue study and you don't have to think how to get money and you don't have to work hard! Just only you can't do is you can't be a style. And you dislike that don't you?! Well this world have test each human but just we don't know what people else feel. Some kind smile have a sad story but not showed. Even if you rich when you are young but you don't know what happen with you married after that. Maybe some kind frighting or something else I could not expand that.. Why my sis always think negative thing that she would be poor forever and always hoping her grandmother? If you mother get that when she mad at you she would not give any her property at you! Just admit that she would not ever love you when you small! There is some secret why the god do that. I don't understand why you always blamed god about you faith and about you life. It waste you becoming Islam if you don't have any iman on your. Well I couldn't say what because I not perfect to say that but I just write what I think. I never blamed God to what happen to me. I just sometimes blamed my mom because she very emotional without think first and then she chose a wrong men. When she fell so regret then always blamed us because my father. Why should you blamed us ? I don't know anything? I just born as the God make it. Don't say about the past and it would not change anything ! You waste you time to talk about that!

Sorry if I could not be a good daughter but I maybe will best but you can't mad for that cause you the only one who don't want to listen your parent and so the karma have begin. Welcome to karma cafe! no manu it left you have deserve got that what you have done. And that thing would be happen to me soon. Just I don't know when and how. I really know what my sister feel but at the time I know what my mom think so I couldn't not say who the right but think of it the both of them are wrong. Sometimes I think my mother right and my sis wrong. And sometimes my sis right and my mom wrong. Then When I think of that the both of them wrong and very emotional. Emotional vs Emotional and then the frighting happen so supper hero? Hahahaha. Can't believe it. But if each other talk slow not shout that frighting wouldn't happen again. My mom is the wrong when she  yelled and saying about the past what happen like yesterday. When she get lose her money because she spent her money to eating Pizza with Haikal. She have to think that we are teen and you not supposes yelled like we are child! You know that you could be make other crazy and get mental! And you will make someone stress about that. Just relax. Well I don't what to say.. It look like crazy. But she is the one who say that child are going to be teenager so that could be there are gnarly so we are not supposes to yelled to much. Is that you mother... -,-

My sis is the wrong too.. Well she want to be perfect in whatever situation but please remember none of you plan would be perfect what you dream. Well I admit it I though it would be fine then I really shocked when my sis yelled back. This is so not cool. -_- My sis have hobby who like to blame anyone when frighting happen. She blame me because I late buy lunch to my sibling. Well that happen because she not help her mother about TV. Is is the one wrong too.. But none of my family would admit that they are wrong. I just seen it. None of them admit that. They are pretend like they are right so what I can't say? NONE... About Job. She really confident that she will get job from auntie ( I don't know what her name.Seriously) but why my feeling not good about that. My feeling always doubt about that. That would be a true. This feeling never wrong. I guess so..So don't be sure a thing that you not conform that. And the last she feel so sad cause she late. She can't get. I am sorry about that but if you really want that job you should be  in earnest interview with auntie. Well I don't know what to say. There are little thing you should sacrifice. Like you are not gong cinema with us. No Hansel and Gretel. You want two? But you can't have that. One of you dream will slip.You have to chose one not two... It hard to say to you cause you will not me and I not you. Hard to you accept that but easy for me to accept that. You and I not same. If I suggestions Jasco job and you appearance look like you dislike and you always saying negative words that you can't do. You don't know that work are hard or easy if you afraid to try. Like me. I really don't know that work are hard or easy if I don't try but I always think positive that I could do that but in end I actually can't do.. There are not same between restaurant Ladyfinger and McDonald. I admit that I fail. I am sorry for that.

Well that not took a long time to frighting. I fine next. So we are going Jasco and then going Big Apple Donut. Let's some eat fine after my sis going to met auntie. In whole time she look so sad. While my mother try to cheerful. I just make a cool appearance even though I feel not good by at time.My sis going to get Job else after we are buy ticket. Well many chines girl walk around cinema. What they watched ? I wonder what it is.

After my sis going to looked other job. We are still sit here. When she come. My mother want to eat Bubur on our neighbour restaurant. well that nice. Delicious. Oh yeah.. Time come out. Well the most I have when my mom want take picture of me. Well you see. same story, same placed, and same cloth! Dammit! Not cool! This time we are seat not much closed. But like close. But what ever close me between that story I still couldn't  see so clear that word. I just have to understand by myself. When I take that picture the movie, now then I can see the word but it so dark. Their face not clearly.. haaa~ This is not good~ After that we going back Big Apple Donut place. And eat some Donut. After that they are want take some picture from poster Hansel and Gretel. I just looking at .. Well I don't wanna talk about that... Forget it. I think finish. Sayonara !

Again..

Bonjour il!! Dah mula dah...hahaha... Stupid girl.Very super moron.Wrong wrong with dammit?! Is that your hobby ? To getting problem? or trouble?? $%&*#@ This is so stupid! -_- she is moron... my sister just order to cook a rice but she mocked at her sister. Strange? Yes it is... Not enough that then she cried. Want attention from your mother, huh? Stupid! She got many problem to think not to think about your small problem. Just because you don't won't listen then shouted at her and now you had yelled from your mother. If you won't not to listen but just ignored it and do your job. And now my mother yelled her and advise from an hour.. I guess...and then she started with like this "don't be like dalila. she is not good in word. her word are crumbling.Look at her blog"  yes mom! That true but like i care about that. I can correct my word. If i fail in word or what i not die yet. My brother acting like he reading book. Very well showed like good son. Dammit you! And when my mother done with her and now turn to my eldest sister.Giving advise about her job! Make a decision where she want work..haaa... Trouble.Dammit! Dude, who you think who you are? Please lol! you are not beauty and you are not princess so why should i care about you and one thing why should i respect you dude. Damm you!! Super wow,huh? Dude why you so diligent to do all home work like heat that water? And when my mother saw that she said."that my son.very diligent..." Like the  super hell i want throw he away from this house!! Good  acting,huh?! Brilliant.. *clap.clap* Well i just wondering when you stop acting? But seriously he is so cool not that bitch always give me sick! Well i guess i should stop.
Sayōnara

Super Angry

Amboi adik aku lagi sorang nie! cam sial jer! Dammit you bitch! Hate you really seriously! Lepas makan sedap je tidur bilik mak ni atas katil macam Ratu pulak.Dia sorang jer duduk situ! Meyampah betul! nak maki kang dia menagis super gila. This is so stupid!Hari-hari aku ni asyik rasa marah jer. Kalau tak Luqman, Tasha atau Ikhwan. Super moron! Hari ini musim aku marah Tasha! Seriously i hate for a long time ago! Tau tak, my mother really love ank yg bongsu! tu sebab mangkuk tu la lahir aku bukan lagi anak bongsu! Idiot! My mom say ank dia yg paling bongsu tu baik segala super crazy! Sepatutnya aku dgn kakak aku jer. Tapi entah cam mane korang lahir super stupid! My mom memang nak cari penyakit! Semalam kakak aku ada kata yg my mom has say at her, mereka nak masuk alam remaja nie degil so jangan marah mereka.Biarkan jer la.Super Hell!!! LIKE I CARE?!!! Eh aku dulu, 12 tahun. Aku pun masa tu masuk alam remaja and i like them! Super degil! (tak der la degil sangat) tapi elok jer Super Gile Setan Mak aku segala maki dan cacian! Amboi time aku gile setan marah dekat aku tapi bila si tak gune tu pulak biar! What Wrong with you! This is so not fair! Like i care about it! Suka hati aku la nak maki ke marah ke sebb you mother always mad with me and not enough that you saying worst thing from you mouth at me! And i would do the same thing at them! Kenapa manja kan sangat anak saif bodoh tu! You Wish That don't you. That why the only men you have is that dam guy! Super Stupid LoL!! THIS IS REVENGE!!!

Unfortunately Life

  Dalila merenungkan nasibnya yg harus bekerja di kedai kak Alice.Adakah selamanya? Dalila menginginkan kerja di kios sejak dia dan keluarganya pindah di klang febuary lalu tapi malangnya nasib tidak menyelebahinya.Dalila akan takut kalau dia selamanya kerja di restoran.Dalila ingin bekerja yg mempunyai banyak gaji dan berhasrat mahu beli telephone Android untuk dirinya kerana tidak tahan berkongsi tablet dgn ibunya.
  Jika difikirkan kerja seperti itu memang la tidak menghasilkan banyak duit.Sebab itu lah kita harus belajar rajin-rajin dan dapat SPM sekurang-kurangnya kerja kerani.Jika difikirkan masa belajarnya tidak la tentu kerja setiap malam Dalila mengalami masalah nak tidur.Seperti suatu peristiwa berikut ketika Dalila ingin pergi menonton wayang bersama ibu dan kakaknya.Waktu malam itu Dalila cuba menutup matanya tetapi tidak berhasil.Sehinggalah pukul 6 pagi. Ketika itu lah dia dapat tidur tapi masa tidurnya kurang dari yg sepatutnya.Kakaknya gerakan Dalila pada pukul 10 pagi. Ini membuatkan Dalila kurang senang ketika mahu bangun.
  Macam mana mahu belajar sedangkan malam dia bersebilik dgn kakaknya.Jika Dalila membuka lampu ini akan menggangu waktu tidur Kakanya. Disebabkan tidak mahu menggangu cinta kakaknya dgn mimpi Dalila meyalin semula ayat dari buku rujukan masuk ke blognya dgn harapan suatu hari nanti dia akan belajar dgn cara begitu.
   

  Dalila teringat akan kata ibunaya 'sebab tu aku cakap dgn kau jangan marah sangat budak-budak itu nanti jadi kes lari rumah macam wiliam tu.' Dalila melawan balik kata-kata ibunaya mengenai pekara itu.
'Alah aku dulu banyak kali kene marah, elok je.'Perbincangan itu berlaku apabila Diana menyatakan kisah sedih Hansel and Gretel yg sering dipukul dan akibat tidak tahan dgn sikap ibubapanya yg pysko mereka melarikan diri.Ditamabhkan lagi dgn kisah Wiliam,kanak yg hilang disangka kes keculikan,menjumpai mayat tersebut di sungai pelabuhan klang.Esok merupakan siastan DNA mengesahkan itu adalah wiliam dan lusa pula siatan mental dan fizikal. Pihak polis mengatakan bahawa ada kemungkinan wiliam dipukul dan dimarahi oleh ibubapanya dan disebabkan itu apabila ayahnya tinggalnya didalam kereta di Subang Jaya, Wiliam mencari ayahnay dan setelah penat mencari ayahnaya dia membawa dirinya berhadapan maut kerana meyanka ayahnya tidak menyanginya.
   Bila Dalila mengingati peristiwa dahulu, Dalila sering dimarahi dgn ibu kandungnya. Walaupun hal kecil sperti botol kicap. Segala cacian dan makian telah dilempar padanya berbakul-bakul sehingga membuatkan ia menangis tanpa henti. Disaat itu dia merasakan tiada siapa di sebelahnya dan di saat itu dia merasakan tiada siapa sayangnya dan dalam benak hatinya rasa ingin mati dan ingin keluar dari keluarga itu. Diketika itu dia menulis diari sebagai teman hidup dan luahan hatinya kerana tiada siapa pun yg berada disisinya untuk menyabarkannya sedang dia marah dan nagis.Kakaknya juga tiada disisinya waktu itu.Segala cacian terhapad ibu,kakak dan adik tiri serta neneknya diluahkan pada diari itu dgn tulisan seperti orang ingin bunuh orang.Habis diari yang cantik itu ditulis dgn tulisan buruk.Ketika itu
    Dalila menduduki biliknya sorang-sorang sambil menangis atas nasibnya sementara kakaknya mengambil keputusan untuk duduk di luar.Dalila menangis sepuas hati dan menjerit dalam hatinya seperti orang gila.Mana hatinya tidak luka hanya kerana sebotol kicap dia dicaci maki seperti dia orang asing dalam keluarga itu.Sejak umurnya 12 tahun dia sering dimaki oleh ibu dgn perkara kecil.Disaat itu Dalia berjanji pada diri untuk belajar bersungguh-sungguh dan apabila dia mendapat kerja tetap, Dalila berhasrat untuk simpan duit dan suatu saat apabila adik tirinya besar dan boleh membantu ibunya.Dalila ingin meninggalkan mereka di laur negara dan berjanji selepas itu dia tidak mahu berjumpa kakaknya, adik tirinya serta ibunya.Bila direnungkan, Dalila mesimpan hasrat untuk lari dari keluarganya.
     Air mata Dalila menitis setelah dia mengingati peristiwa dahsyat itu.Dalila juga teringat akan ketika dia mengetahui bahwa kakak dan ibunya berpakat untuk mengrahsiakan harta pembelian tablet dari Dalila. Kesemua adik tirinya tahu hanya dia sahaja tak tahu. Pada waktu malam Dalila menangis atas perbuatan kakak dan ibunya.Dalam hatinya yg sakit itu terdetik rasa ingin melarikan diri dari keluarganya kerana dia mengangap dirinya tidak disanyangi oleh ibunya dan Dalila berfikir jika dia lari mungkin itu akan meyenangkan hati ibunya.
     Dalila menyedari bahawa diri juga mempunyai perasan begitu.Dalam usia remaja memang selalu begitu.Kadang-kadang Dalila terfikir akan mengapa dia gemar cerita fantasy seperti Final Fantasy dan gemar akan cerita perang seperti Final Fantasy Type-0.Dan Dalila juga gemar kartun jepun ataupun kartun apa-apa sajalah yg melibatkan Fantasy.Kerana dia ingin hidup dalam fanatsy suapaya dia boleh melupakan peristiwa pahit mengenai ibunya. Dalia gemar lagu ganas dan metal yg sering dipersendakan oleh ibu dan kakaknya. Kerana musik dan metal yg boleh membangkitkan rasa ingin hidup di muka bumi yg penuh cabaran dan ia juga beri semangat diwaktu Dalila sedang sedih.
     Dalila teringat akan kartu yg bertajuk 'Angel Beats' merupakn kartun yg agak mengarut ceritanya dimana selepas mati ada kehidupan baru dan seorang gadis bernama Yuri ingin menentang dgn Angel dan God atas sebab memberikan kehidupan yg malang. Mereka ingin menentang God kerana mereka tidak mahu hilang dari dunia After Alive dan mereka juga berhasrat mahu mengambil alih dunia after alive.Tetapi cerita itu ada benarnya dimana setiap orang mempunyai kehidupan yg malang dan mereka tidak mahu menerima takdir mereka membuatkan hati mereka tidak senang.Apabila mereka hilang dari dunia after alive, itu bermakna seseorang itu menerima nasibnya dan takdirnya.Akhirnya mereka menjumpai keamanan.Akhirnya gadis itu menerima takdirnya dan dia menjumpai keamananya. Jalan ceritanya mudah seperti roh seseorang itu tidak tenang kerana hidupnya yg malang dan apabila dia meredai, roh dan hatinya tenang.
    Dalila juga gemar game Clock Tower 2 yg dimulakan cerita sedih,dimana ayahnya cuba membunuhnya.Dalila suka cerita yg bersinopsis hidup yg tak sempurna disaluti pula dgn aksi, horror, perang dan thriller .

Favourite Song Yourself

  Dalila sangat meyampah dgn sikap kakak dan ibunya yg suka mengejek cartoon kegemerannya dan lagu yg dia sukai.Jika Dalila suka apa masalahnya sampai nak mempersendakan topik itu. Dah memang minat.Dia  apa kurangnya? Lagu indon, lagu sad always.Dengus hati Dalila geram. 

  Dalila tidak pernah mempersendakan lagu kegemaran mereka.Jarang sekali tahun baru ini.Tapi itu lah tabiat buruk kakak dan ibunya.Selalu mempersendakannya berkaitan jepun. Mungkin itu mereka rasa lawak tapi bagi Dalila ia satu ejekan yg meyakitkan hatinya.Disebabkan itu dalila meletakan lagu yg entah apa entah pada blognya.Dalila memang tidak suka jika dia dipersendakn.

   Disebabkan itu dalila ingin mempunyai laptop sendiri dan dia sudah miliki tapi malangnya ia sudah pun rosak. Dalila juga berhasrat mahu sebuah hanphone Android kerana dia mahu masuk Thumblr dan intasgram. Jika berkongsi dgn ibunya, Dalila tidak boleh meletakan gambar mengarutnya dlm kerana ibunya mungkin marah dan mepersendakan. Satu lagi hasrat Dalila ingin mempunyai PSP kerana dia ingin bermain game Final Fantasy Type 0. 

    Cerita itu agak unik dan special di mana endingnya adalah sedih. Ia mengisahkan perang zaman dahulu seperti sejarah. Playarnya juga boleh bertukar orang mengikut cita rasa dia. Faktor-faktor tersebutlah menyebabkan Dalila berminat dan ingin mencubanya bila tiba rezekinya akan datang. Tapi agak malang subtitle nya adalah bahasa jepun. Agak sukar padanya..

Brother

Hari aku amat marah dengan budak lelaki bernama Luqman. I told you! Dia adalah pencuri mesteri. Kecil-kecil dah curi duit mak yg tak kaya. Dammit! He just think himself. Liar! Penipu besar betul! Ni dah melampau tau! Dah la org cari duit nak bagi dye makan tapi dia tak hargai. Nak makan sedap-sedap. Kalau ko nak makan sedap pergi kerja la! LOL! Pergi kerja at restoran makanan seafood. Makan hari-hari sedap! What a stupid boy! You idiot! Nak curi duit pun janagan la kat keluarga sendiri BODOH! cer curi duit org kaya ke or perdana menteri. Aku nak je maki dye, sepak terajang tapi mak dye ada! Saabr jer la.. Tak gune! Nak makan sedap-sedap je! Who you think you are?! King?! Please! You actually idiot and lazy and also you are not rich okay! So don't like you are king! In reality you are so poor! You know! Your father not rich! And he actually don't care about you and he leave you and your mother without given money to you and your sibling! Just like us! You not going school because you are poor! Don't you relize it! You actually idiot! What a Moran ! So please don't act like a king! You think you pretty?! So you deserve like that? Just because you had a fair skin, everyone have to give what you want?! DUDE! you IDIOT! STOP dreaming!! Whatever you pretty or your fair skin, maybe everybody like you but they can't give what you want. To be like a maid? Don't be stupid! Please ! Don't be like my father okay! haaa.. I really don't know how can i say at him..